Okay. I did this letter a few weeks before Kyu’s birthday. Waaa, it’s just my 2nd time on writing a letter for him, I always attempt to write a perfect one but I do, I always do think of you CHO KYUHYUN.

I’m into dancing and when I met super junior I thought I would fall for its lead dancers. I was wrong. I fell in love to one of the lead vocals, still I was happy enough because later I knew he was like of a frustrated dancer, hmm, he can dance well though.

His eyes, his nose, his smiles. AT first I thought I just admire this man, because he’s damn gorgeous. But then as time goes by, I love him even more as I get to know him better.

His expressions were real. I knew it, there were times he needs to smile because he’s on cam. Those smiles, even were just forced to, can melt my heart. What if he does it off-cam and naturally? well, not only my heart but my whole body would have melted.

Sometimes I think I chose the wrong bias. He’s the most snobbish person in the group! Aish, I have met him twice, and I kept calling his name that time. He wouldn’t dare look to me, nor to anybody. Thinking that, I may conclude that he would not marry a fangirl. There was a time I think, there was a rumor that he thought he had met the girl for him, she was a fangirl. He asked for her number, but the girl refused to give because she’s HyukJae biased. Hope rises from me. My other conscience keep telling me, “You are just a fan girl, MY GAHD! He wouldn’t fall for you, EVER.” You know what, loving this guy gives me inspiration. He’s like a big dream to me; and dreams are meant to come true. Not long ago I have come up with this quotation, “Loving a person who doesn’t love you back, or  doesn’t even know you is worse than loving a dog.” I mean, the dog can be sweet to you in some time, but the guy you love that does not love you or does not even know you exist can’t and will never even be sweet to you. He can’t even touch you!

Those facts hurt. One time I heard somebody say, “Fangirl ka lang, pare-pareho lang tayong fangirl dito!” (You’re just a fangirl! We’re all just fangirls here!) I came back into my senses when I heard it. We, fangirls, are just equal, all are dreaming every night about her bias. We are fangirls that can’t do anything when our bias starts to fall in love with somebody. That’s the equality we have with our idols, we are all allowed to fall in love.

My letter have gone too far now. HAHA. He’s too perfect and I don’t deserve him, but I hope so. You know, I didn’t know when it started that I realized that I fell for him already. AISH what’s with the term fall in love haha~ I think I’m going crazy now. Maybe this’s just a fangirl’s love for her idol, isn’t it? I don’t know, I haven’t experienced love for anybody other than SJ. I remained single!:D

If I were to dedicate a song to him, I would want the song “The Way I Loved You” by Taylor Swift. The lyrics are perfect for you, CHO KYUHYUN. I don’t know what my life could be if I haven’t met Super Junior, if I haven’t met you. I just don’t know. I always would want to thank you for being such an inspiration; even such, I am so happy and contented with it.

This letter is not worth your time. HAHA. But if you have reached until here I thank you with all my heart for appreciating it. If you were a non-kpop fan, probably you think I’m crazy. If you are an anti, you curse me to death and tell me to keep dreaming on a dream that would never come true. If you are a Kyuhyun Biased, CHEERS, I ain’t possessive, let’s dream together. and if you are CHO KYUHYUN, OMG. Gonna faint now. Thank you for reading up to here, I just wanna say, THANK YOU FOR BEING A PART OF MY LIFE. Since it’s your birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I wish you more songs to sing! Every note you hit, is such a lullaby to me. Continue inspiring Cho Kyuhyun. Be strong, I love you.